I'm so ashamed of what happened to me today.
Everyday I go to the same grocery store because it's the one closest to where I live. So, everybody there knows me, since it's not a huge store. Everyone calls me by my name, being so nice to me. What they didn't know was that I was eating a huge amount of food from the shelves and placing the wraps behind other items. I knew there were several video cams around the store, but you know when you think: They'll never catch me. They don't even have me as a suspect due to my excellent mask I wear everyday when I'm around people."
So, this behavior has been going on for about 2-3 months. I live in a very nice/wealthy neighborhood, so one less reason for people who work there to eben think I was stealing food. So I'd walk around with my grocery cart, filled with open cookies, chips, doughnuts,chocolates packages. So today was the day they caught me. As I was paying some groceries I got, the security lady stopped me before I handed the cash register my money and told me I had to pay for something(s) I had consumed in the cafe inside the market and had not payed for it. Thank god she wasn't aware of everything I had consumed while walking around. Otherwise I wouldn't have had the money to pay for them. I walked out so ashamed, mainly because everybody there knew me. Now I'm terrified to go back there, affraid they'll put me in a room and show me the tape of me stealing. I know I needed this to happen to me because I needed to be stopped. But I don't know if I'm ready for the consequences, like, people starring at me and gossiping how the "rich lady" was stealing food from the market.
I just needed to get some relief by telling others about my behavior. It's kind of "confessing" a crime I comitted.
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