Ok so I admit I am a hypocondriac when it comes to my health, odd considering the whole bulimia side.
I have been suffering lately with what I would describe as a feeling of having flem at the top of my throat, very back of my mouth. It is something that I think has come up a few times before but Im also stressing that that is just in my head.
So what I thought was an annoying bit of flem, sorry know it sounds grose, something that I havent been able to clear, like cant swollow it, I drink water and it still doesnt go away, I have now possible discovered that it may be a lump on the back of my tongue, or in my throat, I dont know. Freaking out, as being a hypocondriac I immediately think I have cancer so of course am googling like hell to try and find out what it is. Is this something that can be caused by bulimia? I havent been sick now for 6 days, so surely if it was swelling by I dont know irritation from my fingers being back there, then surely that would have gone down because I havent been sick.????
Something I have found from googling is that we do have lumps at the back of our tongue called circumvallate papillae, but from panic I have now felt back there and one feels larger than the others, mayb this is what is causing the feeling like I have something caught in my throat, its annoying every time i swollow its all i can feel.
So now im like omg do I have cancer and i really need to go to the doctor, but Ive already established im not ready to go to my doctor to talk about my bulimia yet. But if i go to the doctor about this, when he looks at the back of my mouth will he be able to tell that I am bulimic??? I mean I havent been sick for nearly a week, but have been bulimic for over 8 years, i dont know does scarring occur or ahhhhh im freaking out. I dont want to talk about my bulimia but i am so panicking over what this lump is and this feeling that I cant clear my throat I really want to go to the doctor. As if i do have cancer then i need to go to the doctor asap, but then the other half of me thinks well if i wait a month and dont be sick for a month then the tell tale signs that i am bulimic will hopefully reduce and so he wont talk about that and will just talk about what this lump is?
Ahhhhhhhhh please i am freaking out, dont know what to do, is this nothing and is something connected with the bulimia??? Has anyone had this???
Thanks for your help and advice Xxxxxx
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