What constitutes a binge?

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So, on the way home from work, I munched on two handfuls of lollies that were in the car (boyfriends car). Then when I walked in the door, I went straight to the cupboard and I felt my eyes light up when I saw that my housemate had a cake sitting on her shelf. I cut a slice and shoved it in my face. Then I opened the freezer door and ate some of her ice cream..... Then I made dinner and listened to the guided eating while I ate... Stirfry and a smoothie.

Now I feel nervous because I ate these things before dinner.. And now I want to keep eating. Argh.

I now want to keep eating, and I think this is because, in my mind, I have begun to binge... So now I want to have a good binge, and a good spew. Oh dear.

Thoughts? (not that any of this really makes sense)

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Catherine Liberty
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I used to often wonder what

I used to often wonder what constituted a binge. In my mind it is any time when eating feels out of control, when we do it because of emotions rather than hunger. I think quantities of a binge will always differ from person to person it's just the feelings behind those actions that matter I think.

I can really relate to what you said though, so many times before recovery I used to feel like they were my only two options, to carry on bingeing because things had already gone too far for my liking or to just purge and get it over with. In reality you have the secret special third option - neither. Even if you didnt manage that this time, it is always an option.

How are you finding the guided eating audio? Is it helping? I didn't have access to anything like that when I was recovering so I suppose I just tried to listen to my own voice in my head a lot of the time :) x x

freedom peace a...
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Thanks for your comments! I

Thanks for your comments! I ended up eating a bread roll, handful of chocolate sultanas and a slice of cake. Somehow I managed to stop there. I just told myself it wasnt that big compared to what I used to consume. I then went and had a shower, got dressed and walked to the park to get out of the house and away from my housemates food.

I really find the mindfull eating audio really helpful. Mainly because it is teaching me to listen into my fullness (not that i can really distinguish it yet), savor the food, and it gives me the strength to even throw out what I don't finish.
Something I have never been able to do before.

I look forward to being able to feel real hunger, eat what I feel like to nourish my body, and stop when I am satisfied.

I think planning what I am going to have for my next meal, before i eat my current meal is also really helpful.

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