Bulimia Help

hey lovely I know what u mean about thinking of suecide everytime. But think about ur husband and eveyone who really loves u. Imaginehow they will feel after u? Can ur husband live without u?
Maybe nobody can hear ur cries because they dont know that u r so hurted inside. U have to tell them to speak about how u feel and dont think they will think u r weak or something lik that. They will think u r strong and if they really love u they will help u..
If u think they cant help u you can try to speak with a consular..
Be strong I know life can be mess sometimes but we have to face it

I am trynig to say something to him. Last night I tried to say something to my sister who has been to a LOT of counseling, but she really brushed me off. That really made me just go into myself a lot more. Why is that they just don't understand??!?

I just wanted to add some encouragement to your day. It is very brave that you can open up to this community and seek support. Even if you feel that others don't understand, please know that you are valued and loved! My prayers and my thoughts are with you!

Hey girl. I'm so sorry to see that you're hurting. But the others are right. You're awesome & gorgeous & just need to keep reaching out until you get the help & support you need. We care. We hear your screams, I personally have been there, & we all want to do whatever it takes to help you feel better. You're doing great. Just hang in there & things will get better - promise. PM me if you need to talk & can't find anyone who will listen <3

Hey,
I hear and understand you.
Just a suggestion here: why don't you try some volunteer work? Maybe it can fulfill you. Helping others is a way to help ourselves.

yeah some people just dont understand it.. Im sorry about ur sister. But u can always contact me if u wanna support or we can just talk about everything..

Hi,
I'm sorry your having such a sucky time lately. I can't say I know exactly what your going through cause everyone is different, but one time I was really close to commiting suicide too. At the time I had a problem cutting along with the ed, and it was following a binge/cutting incident. I had gotten some old meds and was sitting on my bed wondering if I should leave a note. Life seemed so pointless. I was overwhelmed by everything & did not want to deal with it anymore. For w/e reason my little brother popped in my head & I remembered how upset he had been when my dad had left us. He had been angry and out of control, then super clingy to my mom and me, scared he was going to lose us as well. It hit me that if I killed myself, I was just like my dad, abandoning him. Also, what kind of message was I leaving him? When life is really, really bad, give up. Just stop trying? Ugh.... I didn't want him to believe that. I pictured him sitting in my place, thinking about killing himself. It broke my heart. I realized that even though my life was bad, I couldn't hurt him just to help myself. That's been kind of my motto since then. When I'm still tempted I think about him. No matter how bad things get suicide isn't an option for me anymore. I wouldn't fight for my life but I will fight for his. I love him so I can't hurt him by killing me. It might be dumb, but it's worked for me....

You said you have a husband. I know you love him, and I bet you would fight like hell if someone was going to hurt him. Losing you would destroy him. There are so many ways of dying that are out of our control, like cancer, accidents,etc. If would be bad enough if he lost you from something unavoidable, but imagine what it would do to him if you took yourself away from him. That would scar him forever. What about friends and other family members? Sometimes I think we get tried of going through all this and fighting to be healthy and recover from this ed. We're sick of fighting for us, So fight for somebody else. Your making his life better by staying alive. Look at it as though your protecting his happiness if thats what it takes to keep you going.

You are beautiful and strong. Keep fighting. Whatever your reason is, find one and get fighting. You may feel weak right now but you aren't. One day all of this will be an icky memory. You'll think back to today and be glad you didn't give up. Your husband will be too. And you'll be able to help someone else because of the empathy & understanding you gained from it.

I know you can do it. Please keep on trying, your life is so worth it! <3

I think it is good you haven't been bingeing lately..this may also contribute to your thoughts of suicide. before all of your energy was going into the disorder and now you find something else to obsess about...i have definetly been in similar situations. you cant let the dark energy take you over..it sounds like you have alot to be happy about. I know it is hard to try to work things out without the support of your family, but when you do you will be so much stronger. You will get through this, my prayers go out to you and your family