school + truth
So I am in massage school. I remember when I signed up for this site I talked to a few of you lovely members about if going to massage school full time would be a good idea with trying to recover at the same time. i decided to do it. I thought the structure that it would provide would be really good. However the past 2 weeks i started ditching class to go bp. Not just to bp. today i was so sad i just couldnt stop crying so i ditched a class just so ididnt have to cry in front of people like i had for the pervious 1 1/2hr. Massage school is different they arnt grades but you cant miss a class more then 3 times. i have missed some classes 2x already and i still have 5 more weeks to go and have only been going for 4 weeks. today i went and talked to the administer about dropping some classes i think this many credits is to overwhemling and stressfull. he asked why i wanted to drop and i started crying saying i was just to stressed. he said that was fine and i can drop what ever i want. later today i sent him an email. i said that it is hard for me to talk about this face to face but i am recoverying from a eating disorder (slightly a lie becuase i havent really recovered) and i said me and my therapist thought i could handle full time but it is to much.
I cant belive i told him. But it will be nice that he knows, also massage school is different because i only have 10 kids in my class and they take all 7 classes with me. so they are all getting concerened same with the teachers. 3 students texted me today telling me they were worried about me and that they wanted to talk. my teacher (a big scary guy) also said we need to talk. I dont know if i should tell them too?
thought i would share
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Hey! thats a great thing, sharing your deepest secrets with people you hardly know can be really exhilarating huh? but i think thats where you can get the most support from, i mean since they dont know you THAT well they dont have a right to judge and they can provide help in a different perspective? Idk thats what i think, you should give it a go, try telling them :)
yes, its true its crazy how much of a
relief it is to tell the truth!
whats the worst that can happen from telling them?
it sounds like these ppl care about you
so im sure you wont feel uncomfortable
also if your worried you may be missing to much
its good if your teacher knows so that your schooling
isnt affected!
but just know that you can do it! your in control
and it will feel so good to finish the course.
best of luck! :)
xx never give up, the sky's the limit xx