Wasted: A memoir of anorexia and bulimia

doobee003's picture

I’m reading a book called “Wasted: A memoia of anorexia and bulimia” by Marya Hotnbacher. I love it. I don’t know if it is even that good of a book, but I can relate to SO much of what she is talking about… I cried when I read the first few pages because it was so dead on. Ya know? Anyways I wanted to put in a few quotes from her book:

“I have an eating disorder, no question about it. It and I live in an uncomfortable state of mutual antagonism. That is, to me, a far better cry than once upon a time, when it and I shared a bed, a brain, a body, when my sense of worth was entirly on my contengient to starve. A strange equation, and an altogether too-common belief: One’s worth is exponentially increased with one’s incremental disappearance.”

“I had to say: I will eat what I want and look as I please and laugh as loud as I like and use the wrong fork and lick my knife. I had to learn strange and delicious lessons, lessons too few women learn: to love the thump of my step, the implication of weight and presence and taking of space, to love my body’s rebellious hunger’s, responses to touch, to understand myself as more than a brain attached to a bundle of bones”

“I would not wish the bitter aftermath – the stage we can never forsee when we’re sick, the damaged body, the constant temptation, the realizations of how we have failed to become ourselves, how afraid we were and are, and how we must start over from scratch – no matter how great that fear – on anyone. I don’t think people realize, when they’re getting started on an eating disorder or even when they’re in the grip of one, that is not something you just “get over”. For the vast majority of eating-disordered people, it is somehting that will haunt you for the rest of your life. You may change your behavior, change your beliefs about yourself and your body, give up that particular way of coping in the world. You may learn, as I have, that would would rather be a human than a human’s thin shell. You may get well. But you never forget.”

I liked these, because I could either relate to them, or they somehow give me a lil motivation. I donno. I’m hoping that today will be a better day. I’ll be busy, and hopefully less tempted. I just need to focus on “staying present”… I guess.


unleash_my_potential's picture
Joined: 22 Jul 2009
First stop tomorrow - bookstore...

Thanks so much for sharing...I need a new book ;)

~~~and so she would sing~~~

anna999's picture
Joined: 18 Mar 2009
i hated this book because i

i hated this book because i loved it too much. when i read it i also wrote down quotes i liked, and when i read back over them, most of them trigger me very badly. most of the book is/was a big trigger for me. (im not sure anymore because i refuse to look over my notebook.)

Join the BulimiaHelp.org Recovery Program & Support Community. Tell me more




Free Kick-start Recovery Course

This free 6 day recovery course will teach you the fundamentals of our unique approach to bulimia recovery.

We ♥ your privacy


The information provided in this website is for information purposes only. The information on this website is NOT a substitute for proper diagnosis, treatment or the provision of advice by an appropriate health professional. Please refer to the full disclaimer and copyright. If you do think you might suffer from an eating disorder, it is important that you talk to your General Practitioner, as there are many physical complications that can arise from being at an unhealthily low weight or from losing weight very quickly, or from purging. We advise you to seek professional help with working on an eating disorder.


Copyright © BulimiaHelp.org. 2013. All rights reserved.