i can consider myself fully recovered! My 2 most important pieces of advice to you are these:
1)DO NOT RESTRICT OR COUNT CALORIES!!!!
2) DO NOT PURGE
The hardest part of recovery for me was the not purging part.... but this is absolutely necessary. The urge to binge will disappear when you stop purging, it may take time.
It is also essential that you put your body image/ looks on the back burner during this time. Worrying about your looks will give you no help, and will only distract you from your recovery. Focus on how your body feels instead! Be gentle on yourself... get rid of the all or nothing dichotomy. if you screw up once....all is not lost! Keep going and your purges and binges will get fewer and far between.
"But won't this make me fat!?", you may ask....well it might...at first! Accept that there will probably be a bit of weight gain in the beginning.
By restricting and bingeing, you are literally telling your body that you are in the midst of a famine and have very unreliable food sources. So anytime you binge, your body stores extra energy and nutrients. Know that when you start your recovery, your body might still want to store some of that energy you are feeding it. But that will go away. It has been a few years, and I can now eat all that I care for of WHOLE PLANT-BASED FOODS, such as: potatoes, fruit, vegetables. Eat clean, high carb, plant-based whole foods, and eat until you are content. You will be bursting with energy and have a new outlook on life. This is what happened to me and I feel healed.
"Will the urge to binge ever go away?" yes! you may feel bloated at first, but remember your digestive system is a bit messed up from all of that binging and purging (and it will stay this way unless you allow it to heal). Give your body what it needs and the urge to binge will disappear.