Well, didn't think I'd look at it this way, but Got definitely answers prayers in weird ways...
Today, after 3 months of stealing food from a grocery store on a regular basis, I got caught. Taken into custody, banned from the chain for a year and will be getting a hefty sum of mandatory compensation to pay. THANKFULLY, I wasn't charged. I basically broke down and told the cops when they came that I have neglected to get help for my bulimia. They said that I obviously need to make this a priority and that they knew deep down I AM a good person but it's my responsibility to deal with my demons because already, they've lead me to this. And isn't that the truth.
Tonight was the first real meal I ate without going into with the intention of purging and further b/p-ing afterward. I told my Mom everything, and she knew that things had been piling up and it was time to get serious about it. My body needs rest now and I will post more tomorrow. It feels good to be back. I should have never let go of such a great means of support. Hopefully for those of you that are feeling discouraged, remember that we're all in this together. You've found a place that you can be understood and appreciated for the efforts your making toward your recovery. Love to all and goodnight!