It’s July 4th 2009 and I am the lowest I have ever been. In a last ditch attempt at saving my own pathetic life I wipe away the tears that have soaked my face for hours, reach out for my laptop and Google two simple words - ‘Bulimia Help’.
It’s a search I’ve done a hundred times over through the years but this time, without even really realizing it at first, I stumble across my salvation.
So today is July 4th 2011 and I’m writing to you all with the biggest smile on my face - seriously, my face is starting to hurt from all the happiness and excitement.
Today is my two year “recovery anniversary.”
When I think about all of the changes that I have made in my life over the past two years it still overwhelms me. I went from being a fragile little girl who never believed recovery from bulimia would be possible to someone who now feels like a true champion in her heart.
I have transformed myself completely...
I have removed myself from a lifetime of pain, self-loathing and hatred and created the new me. The new me is strong, grateful, inspired and free but also vulnerable sometimes too.
I think liberated is the best word to describe how I feel today, in honesty it’s how I feel every day since I removed bulimia from my life.
Want to know what’s even better though? I look back on those years, ten - almost eleven years “wasted” to bulimia and I no longer feel regret. Things are so different now.
The fact that I was able to use that pain to not only fuel my own recovery but to help to inspire and shine hope into the lives of others makes every single second of it worthwhile.
I can honestly say I wouldn’t change my past for anything. That has to be one of the most unexpected blessings that recovery has given me.
I’m talking real, life long recovery here, not that version of recovery where you have to “fight for the rest of your life” - no, no, no! - You really can have it all.
How can I be sure? Well I’m living it.
Newsflash: The fairytale version of recovery DOES exist!
Of course it’s hard. I learned very early on that you don’t just go from bingeing and purging 20 times a day for over a decade to a life of bliss.
Recovery is gradual and at times it’s painful. It is full of ups and downs but in the end you realize that the harder times are the ones you learn the most from.
If you’re still fighting right now then I am sure you can relate to that. But I promise you, you will win this fight sooner than you think. As long as you promise yourself that you will never give up then in many ways you’ve already won!
I owe my entire life to Bulimia Help. Before I came here just two years ago I thought I knew everything about bulimia, how wrong I was!
Here I learned why I binged, why I felt so trapped and more importantly the exact steps I had to take in order to get better.
I made friends here over the years who I still consider to be some of my best. There’s something about sharing a journey like this that builds unimaginable and unconditional friendships.
And now look at me - I’m working for the website that saved my life! I don’t think my life could have turned out any more perfectly. I am truly honoured to be surrounded by such courageous women and men every day of my life now.
I really hope that my story inspires you to keep fighting. Remember - ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!
This inspirational course will teach you the fundamentals of recovery and guide you towards taking your first step.
Back in 2006 Ali Kerr confessed to her husband Richard that she suffered from bulimia. Unfortunately inpatient treatment was too expensive and therapy proved ineffective.
Out of desperation they began researching and questioning everything they knew about bulimia.
From their research they pioneered a straight forward methodology that allowed Ali to make a full and rapid recovery. This knowledge became the foundation of the Bulimia Help Method recovery program.
The program is now recommended by experts, doctors and eating disorder charities around the world and is the webs largest bulimia recovery program
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