I am bulimic since I am 17 years old, now 25.
Bingin/purging almost everyday, mostly at night after diner. But also sometimes in the middle of the day, mostly when I don't stick to my plan or if I encounterer triggery food.
I am so tired of this. Tried a lot to recover with mindfulness, meditation, talking to my family. I've been able to stop for 10 days once. I thought I was ''releaved''. But I was wrong.
I have to be honest, I desire my body slim and skinny. But I undertand also, that I am suffering with the bulimia and it has a big impact on my life, my energy and healt. I feel so powerful and kind when I have a binge free day.
The problem is I forget about all of it when a trigger happens, I just think purging is the easiest option.
Since I am working in the food&wine industry, it is very difficult to stick to a plan. Eating every 3 hours doesn't fit in my schedule and as soon as I am eating a little something, instantly I want more. I am often having lunch and diner with clients and I am a sommelier (wine specialist) so I can't refuse to taste/drink wine and try different food.
I am very grateful to be part of this supportive community.
I hope I can share with you some positive moments in the next week.
Do you have any tips for starting this programm?
Have a great day!