since starting this journey i feel very blessed with my progress at work, im happy confident and now have great relationships with my staff. at home my house has never been so clean and organised. but the one area i feel so vunreable is my realtionship with my boyfriend, its our one year aniversary this weekend. he is great a really lovely guy, but i guess i have always kept him at arms lenght because of bulimia. now thaqt im in recovery i have put on some extra wieght. when i met him i was in a restictive phase and weighed the least i have ever in my life. now i have put on a few kgs and also bloat. i feel like he is picking on me now. pointing out my flaws. and to be honest i have pined for this guy for a year, but the way i feel right now. i could take him or leave him. i wish i clould just recover on my own and not have to worry about what he thinks of me. but i also know that if i leave him, the best borfriend i have ever had, he wont be there when im ready in a few months time. maybe il just drive him away with my bloated belly or crazy insecurities, what ever comes first?
does anyone else have these issues