This might sound crazy but this happened this morning:
Last night i was very close to binging, i was almost calling my friend to cancel our cinema plans when she called saying she was on her way and her son was coming and they would get the tickets. So i ate something (rye bread sandwich) and got out of home. I didnt take much money to avoid temptations on the way home. I was craving sweet so i bought some gummies for the movie. Afterwards i went home and got in bed. Safe evening.
This morning i woke up feeling tired and decided to let myself sleep more (which i normally dont do). Anyway i took my healthy breakfast and went back to bed, i thought this way i wouldnt wake uo too hungry. I slept another 2 hrs. and woke up, this time i was dreaming i ate some sweets and i jumped out of bed with an enormoues impulse, like posessed... i still felt exhausted but i just put my shoes on and ran to the supermarket across the street. Obviously binged and purged and then felt terrible and cried... I start to feel this is not getting easier and i just dont know what im doing wrong, why is my body so tired if im eating good?? and as if its not enough, my clothes are just more tight!!
Im feeling so sad and lonely. So today i decided to write for the first time, first my profile and then this entry. If anyone is reading thanks for letting me know!!