I feel quite despondent at the moment and frustrafrustrations with my self. I can only seem to manage 3 binge free days and then it all goes to pot.
I keep focusing on food and my next meal all throughout the day despite reuglalry eating good portion sized meals. Then either my internal stress creeps up on me or the house is empty or I just can't say no to the urges. I know binging is going to make me suicidal and feel completely worse but I wstill follow the orders of the urge.
I don't want this in my life any more but I feel so out of control.