I am feeling better today. I feel like I have some clarity on day 3. So often, when I have clarity I also get arrogant and don't prioritize my recovery. I start to forget how terrible the cycle is. In itself it is crazy how quickly I can disregard all the emotional, financial, and physical pain that bulimia causes me. I am trying to be nurturing to myself and allowing myself to feel what I need to feel. I was able to let myself be depressed yesterday without coping with food and purging. Funny, I feel better today. If i would have inaccurately thought the bulimia cycle would have helped, I'm pretty sure I would still be depressed today. I am proud of myself.