HI everyone,,through years and years I've been in this situation, somehow I can't find the strength or impulse to stop and be a
"healthy eater /workout normal person", most of my life I've been struggling with the image "good looking vs not good looking" issue and that made my life so so miserable to the point that I believe that if i gain weight…..alll the things that -sliming down -brought me will go away and my life will be awful again…. honestly I would never ever want to go back to my horrible living back in my teenage and part of adult days.!!!
I will do and give everything not to have that life agai….so with that explained,, y biggest fear is gaining weight!!
I am at a healthy weight and BMI and also I am always doing medical check -ups because I live in constant worry of my health given that i am a bulimic =( .
I joined this wonderful program with the faith that finally I will find my way out and come to peace with these fears I have!!
will i get chubby if i stop?
how can i find that push or inner strength that all the people have to be normal?
will i ever stop the fear of dying?
I really need a hand or many hands to help me and guide me!!
Thank you friends in recovery!!