Feeling ugly on so many levels

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nikitachikita
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Feeling ugly on so many levels

It sounds like a stupid thing to bitch about, but for the past few months, I've felt it almost all of the time. Being skinny gave me some feeling of beauty as I didn't find any other part of myself attractive. Even on here, I see so many beautiful girls with pretty faces, hair, body shapes etc. If I at least had a face that I was happy with then I think recovery would be a lot easier. I want to be happy with my appearance but find it impossible right now. I don't even make the effort to try and dress up or look half decent because I just feel like it doesn't matter anyway. It's not like I have really have high standards for myself, just something that isn't ugly. Don't mean to be Debbie Downer but this been getting to me a lot lately :( Hope everyone else is in better spirits today.

wheezy09
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i no how you feel im like

i no how you feel im like that most days since ive put a stone on i felt more beatyfull when i woz skinny i liked the bones which may sound realy weird i kinda miss um.
i hate evrything bout myself realy the onlything i was proud of ive lost now i just feel fat and ugly all the time :(

lizzie73
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me too, i am struggling so

me too, i am struggling so much as it was like being skinny was something good I'd achieved and I felt good about that bu now I've put on weight i feel i have nothing that is not completely hideous. but i guess that's maybe not what other people see, i keep being told its all in my head but I don't believe it yet.

lizzie x

Jayc_face
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its harrrrd!

I totally agree...i hate my face and my body i hate to contemplate getting better sometimes because i dont even accept myself the way i am! i feel like if i was really pretty in the face then i could cope with more weight or if i were taller.

i do try however not to give into my ego and not to let it take over, it wants us to feel inadequate and to take on self indulgent acts to appease it. Do try to be strong the inner you is so precious and infinate. try to put positive energy out even when your feeling your lowest, if someone asks you how you feel, say, FANTASTIC!! even if you feel terrible try things that your ego wont like, such as confronting a fear such as height? anything to give yourself a bit of empowerment so that you can know you a little better, in knowing yourself some more you can learn to love you how you are... not an easy thing as i feel exactly the same as you sweetie.

Try this exercise, in a dark room sit infront of a mirror with a candle and look slightly down towards your heart or bottom of your neck, (more relaxing for your eyes) and star for about half an hour, minimal blinking. images of your face will change, perhaps one that you dont recognise, feelings and emotions and reflections of who you really are will pop up in front of you. its very relaxing.

Hope your feeling ok, your as magic and as precious as anyone oon earth xxxxx

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nikitachikita
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Thanks so much for all of

Thanks so much for all of your kind words lov. Gonna give that relaxation exercise a go tonight. xx

Jayc_face
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its harrrrd!

I totally agree...i hate my face and my body i hate to contemplate getting better sometimes because i dont even accept myself the way i am! i feel like if i was really pretty in the face then i could cope with more weight or if i were taller.

i do try however not to give into my ego and not to let it take over, it wants us to feel inadequate and to take on self indulgent acts to appease it. Do try to be strong the inner you is so precious and infinate. try to put positive energy out even when your feeling your lowest, if someone asks you how you feel, say, FANTASTIC!! even if you feel terrible try things that your ego wont like, such as confronting a fear such as height? anything to give yourself a bit of empowerment so that you can know you a little better, in knowing yourself some more you can learn to love you how you are... not an easy thing as i feel exactly the same as you sweetie.

Try this exercise, in a dark room sit infront of a mirror with a candle and look slightly down towards your heart or bottom of your neck, (more relaxing for your eyes) and star for about half an hour, minimal blinking. images of your face will change, perhaps one that you dont recognise, feelings and emotions and reflections of who you really are will pop up in front of you. its very relaxing.

Hope your feeling ok, your as magic and as precious as anyone oon earth xxxxx

http://bravespace.co.uk
All we are, is everything that's right!

wheezy09
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its nice to no others feel

its nice to no others feel the same way as i do xxx

Lauren Evans
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total agreement

oh hun i agree with every word you said
i had a set weight i felt i couldn't go out if i was over and now i'm so far over that weight i've become hermit-girl! ...and that doesn't come with a cape
then i feel stupid for letting vanity bother me
but with my face i can't be bothered to put makeup on anymore - like putting lipstick on a pig

but i find it encouraging to read the positive things you're saying
and i find it comforting to know i'm not the only one that feels trapped by this

stay strong girls xo

fortuna
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You girls are ALL beautiful.

You girls are ALL beautiful. I am too. Let's realize that...

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