This weekend I am so proud of myself. I have a middle weekend food wise. Not 'perfect', not binging- but normal.
I am so happy I could cry. Before I would either eat so healthily and meticiously planned OR totally binge.
SATURDAY: I started on the cereal - strted a binge- but ACTUALLY STOPPED! This has never happened to me before. I would usually be off to the supermarket and go crazy. It would be my excuse that I binged. But no!! I did it. I could not sit still so went to bed!!
SUNDAY: I had so strong cravings! I was in Costa. I was tempted to buy cakes and go crazy. I sat through the horrible pain.I had a large latte and flet I was bad- but I did it. I even sat through the pain of temptation.
It is weird! Before I thought I was recovering when I was eating nothing and was so in control. However this was just prepping me up for a binge. I also thought I would never recover as binging continuously. However this weekend I sit here feeling uncomfortable- but letting it pass.
WOW- I feel empowered.
How do you know when you are actually in recovery?