First Real Day in Recovery- An Average Day

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sunny1985
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First Real Day in Recovery- An Average Day

This weekend I am so proud of myself. I have a middle weekend food wise. Not 'perfect', not binging- but normal.

I am so happy I could cry. Before I would either eat so healthily and meticiously planned OR totally binge.

SATURDAY: I started on the cereal - strted a binge- but ACTUALLY STOPPED! This has never happened to me before. I would usually be off to the supermarket and go crazy. It would be my excuse that I binged. But no!! I did it. I could not sit still so went to bed!!

SUNDAY: I had so strong cravings! I was in Costa. I was tempted to buy cakes and go crazy. I sat through the horrible pain.I had a large latte and flet I was bad- but I did it. I even sat through the pain of temptation.

It is weird! Before I thought I was recovering when I was eating nothing and was so in control. However this was just prepping me up for a binge. I also thought I would never recover as binging continuously. However this weekend I sit here feeling uncomfortable- but letting it pass.

WOW- I feel empowered.
How do you know when you are actually in recovery?

Sunny

Getting better bite by bite x x

MoonlightLady
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Sunny, your post is

Sunny, your post is inspiring. What has suddenly occurred to me as a I prep in my mind as to how I will get through my day tomorrow and try to abstain from ED for the first time in a long time is that I cannot expect to feel great tomorrow. In fact I should expect it to be painful and awful. The prospect of this sounds awful, but as you have showed, the victory is that much sweeter. You did what you were suppose to do, EAT NORMAL. It was hard and it was torturous, but you did it and made a huge step forward in your recovery! Congrats!

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