Hello all, the topic Friendships has been brought up quite some times on the forum. I wanted to update the talk and thoughts on that.
I am now in my starting 30's, - and I feel like the friendships I had during my teen years, and 20's something years are starting to fade, and it's really breaking my heart.
Last year I worked a year abroad in Asia, and made great friendships there. My bulimia was really really severe ( can you imagine the toilets there?! anyways) but because I met girls who were also working abroad, we had a bond. Truth is, they did not know about my ED - still I felt accepted by them, and also felt they saw me positively. Now being back in my home country -the friendships back here are still there, but I feel like with some I am growing apart - partly it has to do with me complaining about being back in Amsterdam - and I do regret that I was negative about it. But I am now okay with being back. It's hard to maintain the friendships back in Asia - as they also go on with their lives and I with mine. Should I make clear that I am happy with friends here? How ? Or is that too desperate? I feel so clingy.
I am working hard on my recovery, and I have no friend to share with! :((( It's so lonely, and I feel so sad - and I know I can do something about it, but it's also so hard during recovery to expose yourself.
Do others experience this as well? How to?