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pisces15372
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Frustrated

Am feeling a bit down tonight because I made it over a week with no b/p episodes and was feeling so confident and then slipped tonight. Think it's because I decided to try having some binge foods in the house so I wouldn't feel restricted but am clearly not ready for that. Guess I need to slow down and really take this one step at a time. Frustrated that I have dentist appt. tomorrow and feeling like they will know. Not going to sleep well tonight because it's so late and hoping I don't get sick. I just don't want to get discouraged and stop trying again. Any encouragement would be much appreciated! Was just starting to have better digestion again too and know this will set me back.

Walker
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Ok! you were are starting to

Ok! you were are starting to have better digestion, that's fantastic! i don't know for you but for me it's a huge thing, makes a big difference. Even if it goes a little step backwards for the relapse, you have gained something.

Don't feel bad, you thought it was a good idea to keep the food at home, you thought you were walking on the right path and realized it wasn't the time. That's what this is all about, now you can go back and take a different route, go slowly, there's no rush.

We tend to count days because it makes us feel stronger, but as we relapse it makes it harder, i recommend u to stop counting and rather focus on the good days and the achievements your reach every week, focus on the foods you are keeping down, on the urges you are not having. Its time to go on, its not easy but it does get easier, think about that, if you keep going it will just get easier!!

If the dentist notices its not such a big deal. Once i visited a new dentist cause i was out of town, he said my teeth were washed and asked if i drank too much sodas or citrus, anyway i said i drank lots of orange juice and soda, deep inside i thought he didn't believe it, i felt he had seen other girls with bulimia. Anyway, he told me to cut it down, and to wash my mouth immediately after the juice, he even suggested to have a quick mouthwash with milk! So i really think that he knew this was more serious. What i mean is you dont need to be scared, you don't have to admit it if you don't want, but its not a big deal if he notices, this is their job so they have probably seen it all.

I hope you take your week from here and make it a great one!

Walker

pisces15372
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Thank you Walker for the

Thank you Walker for the advice and encouragement. It is much appreciated and I'm determined to make it a better day!

Walker
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Im sure you will, make this a

Im sure you will, make this a day to nourish and heal your body!!!

Best wishes,

Walker

Rose16841
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Hey :) ah man I remember this

Hey :) ah man I remember this exact thing happening To me when I started out in recovery! I would want to challebge myself and not feel like I was restricting, so would buy a trigger food and see how long I could have it in the house for LOL! Often I would manage a week or so, but once i started eating it I would just binge and finish the whole thing.....safe to say it was a fairly pointless exercise! My advise is to not put temptation in your way.....I think at the beginning of recovery we are so keen to prove we're getting better we want to challenge ourselves a little too much. I think once you've been doing SE for a while and the urges have reduced a little you'll feel more confident in introducing some of those foods back :)
Hope you're having a good week!!

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