It's been 3 months since I started the recovery. I'm pretty pride; I don't purge anymore, I started to think in other things even if I continue to think in my body shape and in my weight and food issues. But it's easier to live. It's like I was carrying a heavy rock in my back but little by little this rock has became lighter.
However the path of recovery is long and when you think that you get over a challenge a new one come to take the place.
When I with my friends and with my boyfriend (they don't know about my Bulimia) it's so hard to stick to the structural eating. I mean, in order to avoid binge I avoid some food, my trigger food, because when I try to eat I feel so awful and guilty all the day and even all the week so I get depressed and start bingeing.... The problem is that when I'm with my friends or my boyfriend and we're dinning together I must to say NO to any of my trigger food, and the critics and the laughs, of all of them, start. They hate the people that makes a diet. So, somehow they start to mock of me, saying how weak and idiotic are the people who diet. It's painful but I try to let it go. They don't know what are they talking about. But I don't know how to handle that. Any advise? I don't want to tell averybody about my Bulimia in order to be accepted or understood.