Hi I'm Jemima,
I guess you could say I've been in recovery for 1 month now. I've had bulima for 12 years (woah that's a long time when you write it down) since I was 15, but for the first 3 years had Anorexia as well. It started off as Anorexia, where I would not eat anything for a set number of days and then allow myself a binge (followed by a purge). After being hospitalised for anorexia and realising that my quest for extreme thinness actually made me less happy instead of more (which we all think right), and that I was slowly isolating myself from my family and friends and ruining any chance of having a normal healthy and happy life where I can contribute something to this world instead of taking, that I stop listening to the anorexic part of me and went into recovery.
I didn't find psychology helpful, as I didn't fell I had a big bad problem I had to work through in order to suddenly view myself the way everyone else did and eat "normally". After being bulimic for so long I just have had enough of it. I've wasted so much time and money on this, and missed out on doing things everyone else does because I'm too tired/busy being bulimic. Every bing/purge session erodes my self esteem even more, and makes me think I'm a crazy person. I work in a health profession, so I know the side effects of this and I don't want that to happen to me.
I really do think I can recover. After stumbling on this site, all this info about structured eating and body binge urges and mind binge urges makes perfect sense to me. Since then I haven't binged/purged in 1 month! I really think this is the answer. I hope everyone else on here gets well too! Thankyou for the site :)