I really need help. I just want a moment of feeling ok. I want just a moment where suicide doesnt regulate my mind. Suicide and Ed are all that is governing me at this point in my life and its feeling impossible to dig for myself in all of this obsession. I want to feel like today is not a chore, and tomorrow will be ok I make it so. I'm proud of myself for every day that passes where I'm still here looking strong and just fine. I'm tired, and I'm sick, like most of us are. I'm so sick. and I'm ready to give everything I have to fight whats eating me up inside. But i cannot do it on my own. I need help.