Hi I just joined the site last night!
From the ages of 21-26 I binged/vomitted sometimes more than 5 or 6 times per day. I also drank everyday... the bingeing started when I went to college and would stay up for a couple days on speed, and not eat- when I came down I would binge.
That led to weight gain, which led to dieting, which led to more bingeing, which led to throwing up.
I got into a wreck that changed my life when I was 25 and started seeking spirituality and really sought out help- I joined a 12 step program- both for food and then alcohol. I got sober when 1/17/09 and free from vomiting on 2/18/09.
I really do not believe I am powerless over food though, but I feel like I still need support and more help to recover fully, because I weigh everyday, count calories obsessively and workout alot. And I get scared to go out and do things too late because I do not want to eat too many calories.
I tend to stick to around 2000 per day, but sometimes less and sometimes more... And I will exercise more if I feel I have eaten too many calories.
I'm happy with my life in general but I still want to learn how to listen to my body's hunger cues, and I believe I can do that. even though we learned we could not when I was in a 12 step program. I loved the support and guidance in the 12 step program, but I want to try this bulimia help method now...
I am going to visit my boyfriend's family in Oregon for Christmas, and I already am concerned I will just want to eat too much and gain weight...and I am worried I will not get to workout enough...and that I will feel like crap.
And I do not want to live like that, so I am going to give this a shot! I am halfway though the book now- just started reading it last night!
Anyways, if anyone can relate to me (stopped vomiting through a 12 step program but still will get scared about eating too many calories and exercise more to make up for it), I would love to hear how this has worked for you!