how about 30 days challenge?

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samoshka
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how about 30 days challenge?

I always do better when I am accountable.. what if we do 30 day challenge? If we anyone slips the day doesnt count?

FreckledPonyFlying
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i wish this was working for

i wish this was working for me... but no. i have to treat myself very gently still. not making the day in a challenge would make me closer to a failure, due to a tendency to the black and white thinking. not yet then... good luck for all those who will try though! xxx

Freckled Pony Flying

Raven
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I would love to give it a

I would love to give it a try! I would love to have that goal and someone to hold me accountable :) When are you starting?

Ashleysb
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I will try a thirty day

I will try a thirty day challenge. That would be a huge step for me because I think I have only gone two weeks before, but I'm like you and I need to be accountable. I will post if I'm struggling or missed a day :)

Ashleysb
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Maybe today or tomorrow? What

Maybe today or tomorrow? What do you think samoshka?

Raven
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I came back to this thread

I came back to this thread just now instead of binging. So glad I did! So today is my day 1: No pressure, go gently and dont beat yourself up. Just think of how good it will feel when you make it through the urges. I don't want bulimia in my life anymore. I am going to sit down and relax with a cup of tea in front of the TV now. I can deal with this uncomfortable feeling and it will go away soon. Stay strong ad let us know what fun and relaxing things you are doing instead of bulimia today!
Xoxjenxox

Ashleysb
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Congrats! That's awesome! I

Congrats! That's awesome! I have been able to do three or four now im pretty sure. My struggle is that when I eat more during meals and snacks I don't have the urge to binge very often and it's great! but sometimes I feel like I want to purge for fear of gaining weight. So.. now I just tell myself the roll on my tummy is there so I can recover it helps me to think positively about this. The other day I was able to calm myself down before eating instead of eating in a panic which allowed me not to binge and instead just eat what I needed before work. Right now I have to figure out something to eat for dinner besides a salad! I have school tuesday and thursdsay night now and that means I have like ten minutes between classes to eat dinner OR eat at five which is early for me especially because I usually eat my after lunch snack at 3 or 4. Sorry this was a long post but if anyone has any ideas of a quick trigger free dinner that would be so helpful. bread is a big trigger for me. I am starting to add it in but only in small amounts at the moment

LeaLea
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Do you think I could start a

Do you think I could start a challenge today? I'm not sure about thirty days, but maybe "1" milestones- 1 day, then 1 week, then 1 month and make this a perpetual thing, so you don't bow it if you don't succeed the first time and you can still pick yourself up and start again?

I love the idea, it makes me feel less alone in this.

Lea

brookebirdie
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Today is day 2 for me. I

Today is day 2 for me. I accept the challenge!

Kat Chattin
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i accept. accountability is

i accept. accountability is so good for me. 30 days. let's do this. unfortunately today is not my day one. b/p earlier. but i will start now at 16:00 my time on january 29. one day at a time to hit that awesome 30-day benchmark. thanks for the challenge :)

Kat Chattin

Ashleysb
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I started this almost thirty

I started this almost thirty days ago now and it was amazing! I went for an entire week with out binging OR purging! I can almost talk myself out of purging every time now, which means my binges are less frequent! I did NOT go every day binge purge free but I did manage to stop myself from going any further than one small purge or stopping myself at the beginning of a binge which we all know is incredibly hard. So definitely don't get upset or stop counting if you mess up! I counted days I went B/P free AND I counted the days where I felt like I beat my bulimia even if it got me to purge or something, if I made progress that was a successful day. This thinking helped me make HUGE breakthrough in recovery! Good luck to you all! keep posting in here and let us know how you do!

LeaLea
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Congratulations, ashleysb! My

Congratulations, ashleysb! My goodness, I'm back to day one, well day zero, since I had one hell of a bad day today.

Well done! I guess it can be done. Here's to another go at it for me.

Lea

brookebirdie
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I'm counting on you guys to

I'm counting on you guys to make it through the day today! Be strong and just do it for TODAY. You can do anything for one day

Ashleysb
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Yess. One day at a time! I

Yess. One day at a time! I have had a few set backs since my last post, I still have a huge fear of gaining weight which I'm sure is holding me back... I'm also reading this book called Cave Women Don't Get Fat. I didn't get it to lose weight, it's about the paleo diet. It says eat lots of complex carbs and protein... I thought it was a good idea because I have no idea what I should be eating and I don't have the money to see a dietitian. It's kind of helpful... but stressful because I would have to completely change my diet.

everkookum
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Hi there. I started the

Hi there. I started the program on Sunday ..and Monday was my first day binge free. I did b/p yesterday and was afraid I would continue today...I did the guided eating for breakfast and found this forum just now...so ... Would like to participate . Just deciding to do this has helped my resolve to not give into the urges today...thank you. Does this mean I can count 3 days minus yesterday...so two days? I like the idea of not losing the days that have been successfully free of binging. I used to belong to a group that always put you at zero if you failed...so discouraging for me....

Everkookum

FreckledPonyFlying
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I can't believe this... I was

I can't believe this... I was the first in this thread to say that completing this challenge was not approachable for me.... And now, today... Yay, it is my 30th day without purging!!! I was far away from celebrating up to this morning, as the this week has been very difficult and I've had problems with following SE, and there were a few mild binge episodes... But hey, today I've realized that what has happened was actually quite amazing. Being long-term tired and stressed I've ONLY slipped down a bit, ONLY to eating without appropriate awareness, ONLY to eating a bit too much, ONLy to isolate myself a little... BUT: I kept using the recovery tools and I haven't returned into what used to be a norm for these kind of situations over the years: a week or two of complete and constant b/p cycles accompanied by a state of depression and what I generally call "darkness"... Right now I am on my way back to SE. I think about the number 30 and I realize that is not only the number that makes me quite happy, but the awareness that behind this number is my experience of "I can", experience of the progress. If it wasn't for the last, tricky week, I would still be waiting for the first hard recovery moment to happen and I would be afraid of it. Now I have this experience of myself surviving it. So it looks that things may not be perfect, linear ans smooth, but it is still my recovery. And it is moving on. Thank you for your support everybody. Even if we are not in touch directly.. Thank you for making this place such a wonderful source of wisdom, humanity and strength for all. xxx

Freckled Pony Flying

reese1
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I'm in! today will be my

I'm in! today will be my first day and since it's nearing the end I think i'll make it. it's also a sunday which is a typical binge day for me since it's the weekend and I have been home and in/around many binge opportunities today so i'm marginally proud of msyelf. of course it's after bp for multiple straight days but... I have to start somewhere. hoping I can make this work and please update on how you guys are doing!

Reese

Kat Chattin
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I started this challenge Jan.

I started this challenge Jan. 29 at 16:00. It has not been perfect. I have had several days with b/ping. However, I have noticed significance with more days on my structured eating plan. More days b/p free. And the days that I do b/p, there is an awareness and a tracking of the behavior, triggers, and what I can be aware of next time.

Great news is I've had 7 b/p free days, in the 13 days. Nearly halfway. And improving. My challenge to myself is to do even better in the next half of the 30. I've made great progress with the structured eating plan. Though I am finding it so challenging sometimes, I know it is a key to my recovery. I view it as an essential piece of rebalancing my body and also my mind.

I appreciate all of the support in this group. Knowing I'm not alone, and there are other awesome, intelligent, caring women that are going through the same struggle, many who have lost much time and energy to the darkness, much like myself. We are standing up for ourselves, for the rest of our lives. So that we can know peace, contentment and wellness. I believe in yous. and I believe in me. 30 days... 17 more for this girl and the 30 day kick-off has me soaring.

Kat Chattin

FreckledPonyFlying
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Hurray Kat Chattin! I love

Hurray Kat Chattin! I love your post, love your strength and how there is no black and white thinking. And this bit: " I view it as an essential piece of rebalancing my body and also my mind." ... I relate to this a lot. I have this affirmation: "My body i s healing , it's getting healthy and strong. And this is beautiful." - such a hope after all these years to believe that it is not my mind that's mad and screwed-up, it is the body!! I find it so far that recovery, at least at the beginning (that's where I am) - is about control as much as ED is. The difference is that it is eating and not not-eating that has to be controlled. On the good days it seems to me that controlling eating is easier, on the bad days all the doubts keep coming back... I am trying to remember the good days than. It helps a bit sometimes. Thank for being proud of yourself, it is an inspiration x

Freckled Pony Flying

reese1
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KAt that is great news!!!

KAt that is great news!!! any progress is good, recovery is such an imperfect process but you should be proud of what you've been able to achieve. I'm on day 4 bp free which is actually longer than I've gone in awhile so fingers crossed. the weather makes it tough i'm on the northeast of the US so we have been constantly bombarded with storms which makes it oh so easy to stay home and be surrounded by temptations... but this site is a great help and a helpful distraction. how is everyone else doing? Freckled pony, how are you?? congrats on the completion of one month that is amazing.

Reese

Kat Chattin
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Thanks Reese! Good for you

Thanks Reese! Good for you too!! This site has been so helpful. And I am just really starting to get into it.
Thanks also Freckled Pony! I like your affirmation, can so relate to the effort in changing thinking processes, challenging and maturing belief systems that have been holding us back.
Thanks for sharing and thanks so much for the support, yous!

Just want to share that today was a huge success for me. For lots of reasons, I felt my calories consumed outweighed my calories burned... who knows if this is accurate, but it is how I felt. And I stayed purge-free all day!!! I had 2 different instances where I caught myself mindlessly eating, the onset of a binge, and said STOP. Stop. Breathe. Focus. And I left the binge opportunity. I recognized the all too familiar feelings and thought processes starting and intercepted. I changed the behavior!!!

So that makes it 8 b/p free days in the last 14. :)

Thanks for the support!!! I hope yous are doing so well. Let's work together to stick to this 30 day challenge and let it be an initiator to changing the bulimic behavior.

Namaste. The light in me senses and honors the light in you.

Kat Chattin

Kat Chattin
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p.s. If interested, I wrote

p.s. If interested, I wrote a blog about today that I hope can be helpful to yous that are struggling to get in the food with structured eating and not purge, even when its so challenging. It's called: Just a grilled cheese.

Happy day towards recovery friends. Keep fighting!!

Kat Chattin

everkookum
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Hi there....7 days out of

Hi there....7 days out of 11.....I'm very thankful today...yet feeling nervous...I feel that hunger in my throat that always leads to a binge I think I'll do one of the mind audio tapes...it,s sure to help.....will let you know tomorrow how it goes...oh I do not want to binge and purge.

Everkookum

Ahoh
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I would love to start the 30

I would love to start the 30 day challenge! Anyone want to start with mr? Tomorrow is a new day, right?!

Allison

Ashleysb
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I'll start again. I tried to

I'll start again. I tried to go for thirty days about a monthago but lately I haven't been about to stay on track so let's start over!

LeaLea
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And for me! I still get stuck

And for me! I still get stuck after day one, but I'm amounting all the day ones to a victory, not a failure.

Keep pushing everybody!

Lea

Ashleysb
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That's right Lea :) Today is

That's right Lea :) Today is one good day down! I wrote down how I felt before or after every meal today and it helped me be aware and stop my binges! I hope everyone had a good day!

reese1
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for some reason I bail after

for some reason I bail after 4, it's like some weird inner switch. today is day one so i'm starting again! id rather start over and over then give up

Reese

Ashleysb
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That's good that you keep

That's good that you keep trying! Reese! I know what you mean after a few days you get tired of fighting and being good and you are still having binge urges so it sounds so Nice to just fall back to the same routine but remember that the urges and struggles are only a fraction of what could be a great recovery! Everyday you don't restrict and don't purge gets you closer to recovery! You can do this! If you feel something specific is the problem please feel free to talk about it! We are here for you!
Today is my day two and I want pancakes but I can have that for breakfast if I am still craving pancakes in the morning!at least that's what I tell myself lol

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