I have tried very hard to recover but the only thing in my way is my weight gain. Im too scared to weigh myself but i can feel the fat on my body increasing. I feel disgusting and so embarrassed and i don't want to go back to bingeing and purging to lose the weight. How can i get back to the weight i was before recovery? I don't want any advice on how to accept the weight gain as i cant, i just need to lose it, healthily if possible. Any ideas would be appreciated!