I quitted purging at christmas last year and am now one month binge and purge free-
to my great joy!
I want to share this victory, because it is 2 years ago that I was purge free for the last
time.I struggle with bulimia nearly 20 years now.
This time,recovery seemsmore possible than ever before, because I do not undereat,
eat regular and have no binges.I try to learn to cope with strong emotions in healtier ways
but it is still very difficult.
What notpurging offers to me:
No panic and nightmares anymore,less extreme anxious,no heartpain and irregular heartbeat,
no shame because of vomiting, no tooth pain, less migraine, less costs...more selfworth because
I can resist this bad habit.
So,this are the great results,and I hope that I never forget them because of the difficultchanges too:
Today I first weighed after a month and had gained nearly 20 pounds in this month, which
feels frightening and makes me angry.
I overate nearly every day,ate regular,too and my body stored everything, together with cronic
obstipation I gained a lot of weight.
And I really dont know how to plan and eat smaller amounts still-I am so used to overeat,to ease
pain with food, to feel more secure with food...
I cannot go on a diet, I just want to learn to eat structured and smaller amounts, because I feel
depressed,bloated and have stomach pains after eating big amounts of food.
Do someone has an idea how to stop over-eating completely???