I'm doing it again!!! :( Please help!

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syedahum
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I'm doing it again!!! :( Please help!

The last few days have been ridiculous for me. I feel like I have myself in chains and I am trying to break free just to eat everything in sight. Of course all of it is dessert. I dont know what is going on. A few days ago I was doing so well and was well on my way to recovery to the point that I had minimal thoughts of food.

I am trying to keep myself form binging right now. Please! Someone help me understand... :(

"If you are going through hell, keep going till you find the exit"

" Keep moving forward. Purging is the disorder, Binging is your body fixing it. Structured eating is the medication"

mandsep
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hey are you still having

hey are you still having problems? i'm online and i've been having a bad night too :( especially today, i didn't purge but i pushed a few of my "healthy, moderate" meals a bit far and had some crazy near-binges. now i feel gross and am trying not to just run to the kitchen and eat everything just so it's official :(

lets not binge together!

hugs :)

xx

~*-GirlOfTheNorth-*~

calilove
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Hey girl. I understand how

Hey girl. I understand how you feel and I just want to say that if you need someone to talk to, I'm here. We're all here. This website is the only thing keeping me sane this last week, just knowing that there are other people dealing with the same thing. We can do this.

syedahum
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yep, still bad

Hey,
Thanks for the replies. But yeah, it still is pretty bad. I thought I could sleep through this but it just feels worse. Now not only do I feel bad, I feel pissed off at everything.
My bf is being difficult. He keeps doing his work and such but still tries to give me an idea that he cares. If he did care, he would ask me what I wanted and help instead of doing his own thing while leaving me with a "tell me if you want anything k"
I am pretty hungry right now but I dont want to eat breakfast by myself and seem like a pig to him again but he wont even come help me make the meal because he is busy with his video games.If he would have cared enough about this problem and asked me more he would know that it really sucks if I keep from eating when I am hungry because then I just get confused and want to eat everything in sight. He thinks I have a handle on things but man how wrong is he..
What is sucking is that I am questioning this relationship and if he understands me at all, and I love him a lot. I would be extremely unhappy without him but he isnt helping either.
I should just go throw my fist into some wall, make the pain official and physical..
(wow, such a weak moment :( )

"If you are going through hell, keep going till you find the exit"

" Keep moving forward. Purging is the disorder, Binging is your body fixing it. Structured eating is the medication"

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