I'm so sick of this shit!

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msenter@live.com.au's picture
I'm so sick of this shit!

I go to sleep every night thinking, tomorrow i will start my journey to recovery. Then I wake up and my first thought is, this one last time I'll binge. Lately I've been getting so tired after a binge that I go to sleep then I can't purge so I have eaten a trillion calories. So now I'm a binge eater. Just great!!!! Fuck I hate everything. I fucking hate this disease. I hate it i HATE IT I HATE IT! I;ve cried so much there are no more tears left.
I'm sick of myself, I'm sick of my disgustingly huge stomach and I'm sick of being a big fatty that continues to pile on the kilos because of this horrible habit.
I don't want to do it anymore. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.


Teensy88's picture
I know how you feel... I've

I know how you feel... I've been there too many times than I would like to count!!! But it does get better.
PM if you need someone to talk to, don't feel like you have to suffer through this shit alone. It makes me angry too, to think about how much time I've lost on this stupid disease... And ironically, I'm now so much heavier than my pre bulimia weight...

Again... Trust me... IT DOES GET BETTER!!!



donutseeds's picture
Teensy is right, you are not

Teensy is right, you are not alone! It can get better. Some days it seems like it never will, but it CAN.

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