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Hi

I have just joined up tonight.

I am 25 and live in England. I have suffered from bulimia for 9 years now and I am desperate absolutely desperate for it to leave me for good. I say this yet in the midst of a binge urge that totally consumes me, I just don't even feel able or strong enough to wade through it and I throw all my determination in the bag.

I have quite a substantial mental health history and also suffer from borderline personality disorder. I realise and accept that the main reason for my binging and purging is the emotional and mental functions that those behaviours provide. I can eat 3 meals a day and snacks and still binge, all because there must be some underlying vulnerabilities/discomfort/panic that I have learned to numb and make disappear through the binge.

I really hope this programme works. I am going to do everything it suggests and pray to God for strength.

I have seen so many testimonies from people so I just really hope this can help me turn my life around.

I just really don't want this way of life anymore, I want to be FREE, I don't want food to order me around, I don't want to constantly have to think about food. I don't want to hate or have such a warped relationship with food. I want to love and appreciate and be happy with the way I look and my body.

I hope I am not asking for too much!

Be still and know that I am God

dreamer8
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Hi! I want Exactly the same

Hi! I want Exactly the same thing. I can eat non stop even with balanced meals no problem.. I too know it's another underlying issue. I'm so unhappy with my life right now, far from the once care free happy girl I once was. I believe we will both get there , sooner than we know:)

Chasing dreams..

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