I am so frustrated, I keep binging and won't stop, I'm at the point now that sometimes I'm not even in the zone ... I'm just eating for the sake of it! It's soooo annoying I feel like I'm self sabotaging my recovery! Bloody hell this bulimia is a complexed evil thing! I do want to recover and I hate feeling like this, I don't leave the house anymore,only to go to work! I never socialise! :-( I miss socialising, but after 4 years of hibernation I'm scared of the big bad world! I feel like I don't know how to re socialise! ..... :-/
I feel like I'm in a viscous circle of .... Feel lonely - binge - feel fat - purge - isolate myself - binge - purge and so it continues!
Anyway sorry for the rant. Just so frustrated with myself ! Grrrrr ... Has anyone else experienced the MIND BINGES and has any tips on how to control the, I've tried the things in the BRM guide book but they aren't cutting it :-( maybe I just need to keep trying! I know recovery isn't instantaneous (wish it was) .... Thanks for listening guys and I wish you all the best in your own recoveries
Love Bec x