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Kayla r.
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If anyone takes a look at my profile picture I just want to explain why I chose that and what it means to me;
What I see is a girl painted in black to me black is a numbing color and I know if I'm wearing black it's usually bc I want to hide myself. She's throwing up hearts now for people without an ED that could mean love sick or sick of love but to me a purger I see what I am stripped of when I purge. When I purge I'm not just throwing up food and in wanted calories (which thanks to the ebook I've learned doesn't even work) what I'm actually purging is my self worth and my love for myself. I'm turning myself into a shell and I'm lacking love because I flushed it with my latest binge.
I want my spirit to thrive and I want to be full of love unlike the girl in the image. So that is my reminder of what I lose when I purge, myself. I hope that helps anyone else and feel free to use it yourself. <3 love to everyone and happy holidays!

"Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead." -Charles Bukowski

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"what I'm actually purging is

"what I'm actually purging is my self worth and my love for myself." This is EXACTLY what we do when we engage in purging behavior. I think your picture accurately depicts the person we become when we fuel this disorder. You are so young and I do hope you work your way out of this. Know that it IS possible and even if you aren't perfectly recovered by a certain date, you will be one step closer to freeing yourself from this horrible trap. It's an awful trap and absolutely NOTHING comes from it. A complete dead end, no matter how appealing it may seem at the beginning (or at any stage, for that matter).

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Love your post! It puts into

Love your post! It puts into words exactly what I do to myself every time I purge. I'm going to write this quote in my journal so I can remember it. Thanks!

Sarah D.

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I love your profile pic and

I love your profile pic and accompanying explanation. It's reminiscent of a painting a friend did recently of his cat "puking love".

"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on".

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