I have been purge free for 15 months now! Crazy! It is good for to write this out because seeing it in writing is so encouraging and is a reminder that I truly have made progress. I learned 8 months ago that I had a gut issue, Candida overgrowth, and have been making steps to heal and rebalance.
All this time later I find that I no longer binge, in large quantities, on food. I still find that I mindlessly eat, eat fast, and eat with out being hungry. I really look forward to seeing this aspect of food balanced out as well.
I no longer weigh myself all the time or keep a constant calorie log in my head. But I still do care about calories and body imagine more than a healthy person would.
It is good to remember where I have come from when I notice the areas I still want to see smoothed out. this truly is a process and I am well on my way :)
This past holiday season was the first one in so so long that I didn't have anxiety about parties and get-togethers. Incredible.
I hope to post updates more often and am reminded again of the benefit to remaining in community. Thankfully I have had an amazing support system in my life that has helped me get to where I am today.
... but it is time to break out the audios for mindful eating again and brush up on keeping a scheduled eating plan for awhile again to get re focused.