I feel like the key to truly getting rid of binge urges (in the long term) is, ironically, learning to forgive yourself after a binge. Whether it be a huge one or just that extra slice of toast you wished you hadn't had- once we can learn to forgive ourselves for just that tiny bit of indulgence, there is no longer a need to have any more.
It would also make this whole recovery process a lot easier for me and perhaps stop me feeling so low and depressive. After having a long tearful chat with my mum today (who doesn't know about the ED) I was simply bursting to tell her that the real problem wasn't the essay, but it was my inability to love and forgive myself enough to just get on with life!
Just not quite ready to tell her yet. The day I can tell my entire family will be a fantastic sense of relief I think.