I just wanted to do a more positive post to celebrate the small things that we find hard & that the 'ordinary' people out there would not recognise as being important.
Yesterday I had three
1. Not only did I have 3 alcohol free days behind me, I wanted a drink & managed 2 ordinary drinks (not pints of G&T...) & then STOPPED drinking & didn't binge on anything else.
2. I made time to give both of my daughters big hugs and a few minutes individual time before they went to bed - I find this hard, although I've mostly overcome OCD, if I'm having a tricky day I find it very hard to leave chores and give them time so I was pleased.
3. I ate food out when I was hungry - something very difficult, in spite of being almost 3 years into ED recovery, at snack times I find it virtually impossible to buy food if I am out. Yesterday I had taken an orange for afternoon snack & after I ate it I was still so hungry that I was struggling to see or have a conversation. With Lotah's help I fought against the 'ED voice' in my head & won, I shared a lovely fresh warm sesame seed Turkish bread, hummus & olives with my daughter - Lotah was a massive support during this process because I just couldn't face the choices alone - Thank you my darling :D
Thankfully B/P isn't on this list because..... I am almost 6 months purge free!!!!
What did you do today that you are really pleased with & yet most people would never understand that it was a big victory?