Tonight I had to make the hardest decision ever. Some of my family is in town and we were going to watch a movie at my parents house tonight. But EVERY time I have gone into that place I relapse. Also, since Fridays have been my days off, my mom had bought me ice cream and chocolate covered bananas while we watch a movie together. But recently I've been throwing them up and have not been able to keep them down. So tonight I knew that if I went home I would relapse. So I didn't go home. My mom and family offered to come up and see me but I knew if I saw my mom tonight all I would think about would be fighting the urge to ask her to go buy me ice cream. So I literally locked myself in my apartment tonight and turned on a movie in order by to relapse tonight. It was so hard, but I did it. And I'm so happy that tomorrow I will not be racked in pain because I relapsed.