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nmorford
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Today

Today. What will today bring? As the week has gone on. I am starting to feel a little better like there is light at the end of the tunnel. I know I still have a long ways to go but I really want to keep moving forward as the great Walt Disney would say. That quote inspires even in the time of most tragedies because the honesty is we all have to keep moving forward. I really just want to say I am grateful for the many people that have touched my life and sometimes I forget that my struggles may be hard, but I have to be grateful for what I do have.

Thanks for letting me share.

N

Coach Jen
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I think gratitude goes a long

I think gratitude goes a long way in recovery! It is so easy to focus on the pain and frustration of having an eating disorder. We all have things to be thankful for no matter how bad it gets! Great reminder :-) Keep up that positive attitude. It goes a long way in recovery too! 

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Today- Real beauty is to be

Today-
Real beauty is to be true to oneself. That's what makes me feel good.
Laetitia Casta

I read this quote and I found it very appropriate. This quote is what I want to achieve. I want to find myself and be true to myself. Recovery is one tool I am using to find myself. I have a lot of struggles and tough roads ahead of myself, but I keep thinking just take it one step at a time. I have always enjoyed running and I have run many races. While racing and I may come to a tough spot. I always tell myself one foot in front of the other. Just keep placing one foot in front of the other and I will make it through this tough spot.

I have to remember this a lot during this process. It is extremely hard to remember it when I am in the middle of a binge and have to force myself to stop and walk away. When I stop and think ok relax and put one foot in front of the other and I will make it through. I am able to not stress as much about what I am doing and can walk away a lot easier.

So TODAY I am going to focus one being true to myself and remembering to find my true self requires I put one foot in front of the other.

Thanks for listening. HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!

N

nmorford
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Today- “Failure is a detour,

Today-
“Failure is a detour, not a dead-end street.”

I failed today. I tried and did not succeed. I hate the weekends. They seem to be my hardest days. This quote was the perfect inspiration for me. My one foot in front of the other did not work. Yikes! My mom is a trigger for me. I know that is weird but her and I have a stressful relationship. She has a ton of junk around her house and that always helps while I am there also.

So today this quote is going to remind me that there is no dead end and I just have to start now back on the right road.

I CAN RECOVER AND I WILL.

Thanks for listening.

N

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You only fail when you stop

You only fail when you stop trying. We just keep getting up and trying, trying again. You got it! You will recover. And each day you get a little closer, no matter if you feel like it or not.

to thine own self be true

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Today- The belly rules the

Today-

The belly rules the mind. ~Spanish Proverb

When I woke up this morning this is how I feel. I had stopped and thought about it. I think I go to bed thinking about food. I wake up thinking about food. I think about food all the time.

Does any one else feel this way?

N

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YES!!! That quote sums me

YES!!!
That quote sums me up.
I feel ashamed and embarrassed at myself and greedy and disgusting!
I hate food, i hate what it does to me, i hate the control it has over, i hate the word food, i hate thinking about it.
I HATE IT and what is has done and is still doing to my life.

'We are each of us angels with only one wing, so we can only fly by embracing each other'

nmorford
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Today- Part of the secret of

Today-
Part of the secret of a success in life is to eat what you like and let the food fight it out inside.
Mark Twain

If only it was that easy Mark Twain. I saw this and laughed. I like to thing about food fighting inside my body. I imagine an apple punching the cookie and knocking it out. The apple holding its arms in the air jumping up and down.

Humor is the only thing sometimes that keeps my going. I hope this quote brings a smile to somebody's day.

Angel333- I understand you pain. I feel ashamed and embarrassed of myself all the time also. But I am trying to work through it. When I binge I am still working on the not purging. I am trying to stay positive and it seems that no matter how hard I still get caught.

Thanks for listening.

N

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Today- I'd like to be settled

Today-
I'd like to be settled into somewhat of a normal life. Somewhat. I know it's never going to be completely normal.
Michael Jordan

When I woke up this morning, I went to the gym and I worked out. So what right. Well when I got home I took a shower and got dressed. Again so what.
I came to my computer and log in and I started to think about how I felt. I felt normal. WOW. I felt normal.

I can not even beginning to tell you how long it has been since I felt normal.

What is normal and am I really feeling it?

I have two kids and a husband. Normal family.

But even with a normal family unit. My days are filled with work, running kids around, taking care of my injured husband, and just doing the normal every day stuff that is required.

Some days for me normal is not easy. Life is not easy. I wake up feeling stressed overwhelmed angry at myself for caring so much about what I look like or how I feel. I am angry about my binges and purges if I have them. There are a lot of times that NORMAL (wink wink) is just to much to handle.

So when I woke up and felt normal. I have to jump for joy and sing hallelujah. Today is going to be good. So the Micheal Jordan quote was very appropriate to how I feel most days.

I hope you all have a wonderfully normal day today.

Thanks for listening

N

nmorford
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Our life is what our thoughts

Our life is what our thoughts make it.
Marcus Aurelius

I just received a email from a friend on this site. I was able to share with her my struggles. I am grateful for her for asking. She lead me to think about my life in the last week and go over the ups and downs I was or am having.

This quote just seems very appropriate today. It is very true. Our thoughts do shape what action and reactions we have in life.

Just some food for thought.

Have a great day!

N

nmorford
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Success is not final, failure

Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.
Winston Churchill

Good morning,
I had my first success you could say last night. I did not purge after binging. I feel terrible mentally and physically. I am thirsty and very dehydrated. But I am not tired like I usually feel.

I feel like I have turned a corner. The purge makes me feel yucky and the binge makes me feel yucky. No win anywhere as far as I can tell.

So I am going to draw inspiration today from this quote and have the courage to continue.

Thanks for listening.

N

nmorford
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Don't walk behind me; I may

Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.
Albert Camus

My boss gave me a really good email about sisters all women being sisters. How you make them as you go through life because at the end of the day our sisters are the ones you are going to need.

It made me think how many women friends I have and how many times I have called on my sisters. I know that I feel like I can call on any one of the women on this site and have a shoulder to cry on and a ear to listen.

thank you for all of that.

N

nmorford
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"To Laugh At Yourself Is To

"To Laugh At Yourself Is To Love Yourself." - Mickey Mouse,

Is this not the truest think you have every heard. The good old Mouse is wise. It is hard to laugh at ones self. I am not so good at that. I get frustrated and feel silly when I make mistakes and do things wrong. I have to learn to relax.

Laughing is a wonderful to make you and anyone around you have a brighter day.

I hope to work hard and learn to laugh more at myself and hopefully loving myself will follow.

N

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Either you run the day or the

Either you run the day or the day runs you.
Jim Rohn

This is how I felt yesterday. I worked very hard not to over eat. Then I was hungry later and I couldn't stop eating. I have gone two weeks without the binge and purge. It has been so nice. Then I started last night and couldn't stop. I could not help myself. Well almost. I wish I could have been stronger. But I did realize all the nasty side effects and do not want to do it again anytime soon. Food is not worth the pain.

I really hope to get over this for good and be able to be free.

I hope you all have a wonderful day.

N

nmorford
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If the world was perfect, it

If the world was perfect, it wouldn't be.
Yogi Berra

Today I am striving to try and not be perfect. Today I am going to enjoy my family and try and think about food less. Today I am going to laugh more and TRY to stressless.

Wait Christmas is coming. Just Kidding.

I just want to try and have a wonderful day.

N

nmorford
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The trouble with life isn’t

The trouble with life isn’t that there is no answer, it’s that there are so many answers.
Ruth Benedict

Good Morning all,

I have had a wonderful weekend and a wonderful Thanksgiving. I dreading Monday as it meant the end of a long weekend and the start of yet another work week. Life goes by to fast. My kids are growing older and so am I. I really wish life could stop for just a moment.

I was also celebrating the fact I have only binged and purged 1 time in the last three weeks. That is huge. I was binging and purging almost every day. I am really excited.

I have been reading about sugar addictions and there is really a lot of information that follows along with this program. I never realized sugar played such a huge part in my problem with food. I am not really headed on the right path to recovery.

I am really thankful for everything important in my life.

Have a great day.

N

nmorford
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You don't develop courage by

You don't develop courage by being happy in your relationships everyday. You develop it by surviving difficult times and challenging adversity.
Epicurus

I was reading my book this morning and I realized that even at the worse times in my life. It can always be worse. Do any of you feel that way?

I have been doing really well and have been binge and purge free for almost another week again. Every time I think about it only being last week that I had a relapse I kick myself. Then I remember set backs are good and I will make it past the week mark again and will be on my way to a full recovery.

Temptations are all around and my boss bless him brings donuts every Monday. I did not eat one and I felt good. But the smell is so nice. It makes it tempting to say forget it. I did stay strong and I am glad now that the day is over.

The good moments are what make the bad ones worth it.

So the above quote seemed appropriate for the day.

N

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The greatest gift that you

The greatest gift that you can give to others is the gift of unconditional love and acceptance.
Brian Tracy

Yesterday was my son's birthday. We had a cupcake that was decorated like a cake. He does not eat frosting or cake. The problem is I love frosting. I did not eat any and I had a huge attack. My family took the cake home and I ate some nuts and the urge passed.

I never imagined the intenseness of the craving but I knew if I ate it. It would turn in to me eating the cake, cookie, and anything else.

I am just thankful I was able to make it through.

Thanks for listening.
Have a great day.

N

nmorford
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All grand thoughts come from

All grand thoughts come from the heart.
Luc de Clapiers

I hope you all the grand thoughts you may have on this wonderful day. I hope everyone is warm and safe today as it is only 17 degrees here this morning,

I want to stay home and watch tv and read book on the couch. Oh well off to work I go.

I just want to say GOOD MORNING TO ALL.

Have a wonderful day!

N

nmorford
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The sky is filled with stars,

The sky is filled with stars, invisible by day.
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Good Morning,
This quote was much needed in my life right now. My son has had his shares of ups and downs. He had fluid in his ears till he was 2 and was unable to talk. He has struggle to learn speak and is still struggling even at the age of five. He has delays across the board and yesterday was another doctor and other issues added to the rest. It is hard to hear these things about your child and you have to step back and remember the stars that do fill you life.

My son is a sweet boy and he has this wonderful personality. He shines everyday and fills my heart.

Not to say he does not have his moments everyday also where he leaves us exhausted but even then he is still my star.

I struggle with my own challenges everyday. I am trying to better myself and have noticed the major changes in my body and my soul as I transform into the person I want to be. I have stopped b& p every day and have started to embrace the things that I can not change. I still struggle daily with the even the normal things but I have noticed that the struggles are getting easier.

I hope you all have a wonderful day.

Thanks

N

nmorford
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One must not let oneself be

One must not let oneself be overwhelmed by sadness.
Jackie Kennedy

I am feeling a little overwhelmed in my life right now. I have a lot going on at work and a lot with my family. I have noticed it really takes a toll on myself control and binging and purging becomes more of a friend. I feel like there is no one around to really talk to about all my stress because my friends don't know about the binging and my husband either has the same stress or does not understand. I just have a overwhelmed since of self loath about my purging. I have decide I need to go back and reread the bulimia help book. I hope to do that today. I wish you all a wonderful day.

Chin up

N

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Hi N, So sorry you are so

Hi N,

So sorry you are so stressed. Just know that you are not alone. The whole world is stressed right now. But don't believe the lie that bulimia is your friend. We all know better than that. Structured eating is your real friend. Just get started on it right away. I notice that a tip has come up several times to take the day in sections, so that just because one part of the day goes bad, the whole day is not shot.

We can start at any point in the day and make it better. So start the structured eating as soon as you can and stick to it, and things will start to look up. Is the stress about your precious little boy star?

nmorford
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Be who you are and be that

Be who you are and be that well.
Saint Francis de Sales

I like being myself most of the time. At times being myself is hard and that is when I struggle. I am learning through this process who I am and what I want my life to look like without bulimia in it. It feels nice when I can go days without the negative feelings that I have when I do have my binges. I am learning to strive for those days more and the food less. I still struggle in stressful times. I am reading a book and it talks about looking at the deeper feelings and trying to examine them so you can defeat them. If you can then the cravings become easier to fight. I have to really look deep sometimes and walk away.

I am still trying and grateful for every new day to start again.

Thank you

N

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The art of life is to know

The art of life is to know how to enjoy a little and to endure very much.
William Hazlitt

Good Morning everyone,
Today is a good day. I have had a lot of shoulder pain the last week and today it feels almost normal. I have been doing ok this week. I struggled on Wednesday but have been able to look forward to a new day on Thursday. I hope you all are having wonderful weeks and I found a wonderful recipe. I saw a posting about soup and it reminded me of it. White wine chicken soup. Lots of veggies and lots of great flavor.

Have a great day.

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/White-Wine-Chicken-Soup/Detail.aspx?event8=...

You should all check it out.

N

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