So my mom and I have never had the best relationship, I've always been a daddy's girl and my mom has always catered more to my older brother. However, this not so great relationship with my mom is really taking a toll on everyone in my family. You see, my mom has been one of my biggest triggers through my eating disorder...she really doesn't eat much during the day and she exercises like crazy which makes it really easy for me to want to restrict or over exercise even though I know that's what got my in trouble to begin with. But this time with recovery...been our weeks now!..I've really tried not to let her issues or controllingness get to me. The hardest thing is she hasn't been the most supportive which is where the fighting comes in. She.is horrible about buying or making trigger foods even when I've told her, she constantly questions what I eat/ when I eat and makes remarks aboutme not working out (or not working out as much as I use to), she completely favors my brother which makes me extremely jealous and hurts a lot because of how apparent she makes it that she obviously likes him more. With this said, luckily I have had my dad to lean on but this makes my mom super upset because my attitude is so nice to my dad but so bad to her. This has also lead to my parents fighting which makes me feel horrible too.
Therefore, I guess im just at a loss of what to do. I want o have a better relationship with her but can't get over my anger and hurt I have. I feel like she doesnt want me to get better because she thrives on other people having problems. Howver, I feel I need to be the bigger person and start being nicer and then maybe she won't favor my brother as much and maybe I can move forward but don't know who's to start or anything.
That was kind of a synapsis..there are a lot of things that have caused arguments between my mom and I (mainly either about my Ed or my brother) but I thought I'd leave that out since its already long but I'm happy o share more if it would help me get advice on what to do
Anyone have ny ideas or thoughts...
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