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nrida1's picture
Very desperate

I am so sick of this. I have B/P everyday for 4 years and I really need support.

I feel like my family has given up and me. I want to do treatment, but I can't afford it. I would love to find others who are also struggling or have tips.

At this point I really want to get rid of this issue on my own, but my biggest fall is the emotions I feel. I also feel physical pain B/P....its like slowly killing me but at the same time I don't know what to do.

If anyone feels the same or any tips on recovery would be great.

ElsieSoproni's picture
Have you read the BHM

Have you read the BHM handbook yet? That's the best place to start. It explains the whole process and it breaks it down in such a way you finally know how to get from where you are and where you want to be. You've come to the right place! I'm here for you and I know you can do this. You've already shown you have what it takes by taking that crucial first step. :) Don't give up on yourself love. <3

rowenaSTERLING's picture
I feel eerily similar to what

I feel eerily similar to what youve written. Im sorry youre going through this.

Zahara's picture
Not always but often I do

Not always but often I do feel this same way. I have been b/ping for about 4 years now too and I have REALLY bad weeks or really good weeks, well more days because lately I can't get past a week without doing one of the two. I've been becoming better at giving my mind time to think things through. Questioning the food I eat, the time I give before a binge craving, and sometimes it seems to help. Make sure to keep your body hydrated, esp, now that most places are getting into summer weather! If you need anyone to talk to at all never hesitate to send me a message, i'd be more than glad to help the best I can. Good luck xox

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Hi nrida and everyone, I just

Hi nrida and everyone,

I just joined, and I'm not sure if this will help, but when I first became bulimic, I was in your position, though my family, when I told them didn't really get it at all. At my worst, I was bingeing most days - sometimes up to 4-5 times/ day. It's tiring, it's tough and the level of imbalance in my brain had my anxiety and self doubt at a high level. However, although I'm on here and clearly still struggle with bulimia, I have moved on so, so much since then, and every step I take is one toward recovery. I don't know your personal situation, but I do know, what helped me, was understanding a bit more of what was going on with me, capturing my thoughts as they came, thinking about them...but I could only do this after I balanced out my eating/binge/purge cycle more often. I'd agree with others about reading the BHM handbook. Importantly, we are all here for support as well. I feel for you, I have felt this too, really. It does, and will, get better.

“What day is it?"
It's today," squeaked Piglet.
My favorite day," said Pooh.”
― A.A. Milne

rach07's picture
Hi I feel in a similar

Hi I feel in a similar position to you- my emotions are the hardest thing to manage at the moments especially with anxiety and depression in the mix. I agree with others that the bulimia help method handbook is a great place to start. I also find regular (3-4 times a week for around 30mins) exercise to keep my mood up helps manage emotions and also writing thoughts down in a journal and doing relaxation/meditation to try and stop the 'panic' area of the brain, letting the problem solving/helpful thoughts through. I know it is so hard to stop negative emotions but also accepting them and really feeling the emotion if possible means you are accepting them and not letting them 'rule' you. I have experienced that the emotions then just disappear. We can get through this! I wish you all the best and hope this is somewhat helpful. :)

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