I am so proud of everybody reading how successful they are in recovery. It makes me feel really bad (I FEEL BAD ABOUT ME, NOT ABOUT YOU) because I never make it further than day 1 because I end up gaining about 1.5 kilos IN ONLY ONE DAY of having a real HEALTHY meal plan of SE. No cravings and no fatty foods that should make me gain weight. I think about gaining that much every single day during one week for example, and I would just be totally obese because I am not underweight right now, so I decide not to continue until I lose those kilos again and then start again with recovery.
I am trapped :(
Help me please