It's been 11 months since I stopped the b-p cycle. I haven't lost any of the weight I gained. (gained about 4kg) ... I feel great for not being trapped in the cycle but I can't accept my body like this. I am short, I am 5'2 and look so overweight. I have even tried therapy to try to accept my body but I can't. I went shopping yesterday and cried in the dressing room because of how horrible I felt. I feel really depressed and confused. I no longer restrict or skip meals, I eat less than a lot of my friends and still, I am the heaviest (which just makes everything so much worse), I eat completely healthy and excersise 3 to 4 times a week. Why am I not loosing any weight? It's been a year, and yes I have a thyroid issue, but I know people who are hypothyroid and are able to lose weight. Have I completely messed up my metabolism that I am no longer capable of losing weight no matter what? I know being recovered means never to have to diet again, but I am not dieting, I am eating healthy and excersising and nothing is happening. I can't seem to accept my body no matter what I do, and I am always having thoughts (since purging is no longer an option for me) about having a liposuction or some sort of beauty treatment. Is this normal? can someone who ahs gone through the same please help me, a coach perhaps????