I think we've all heard of body image distortion, but i think this is the wierdest part of recovery for me. So I just wanted some of your thoughts!
Supposedly some people see themselves as being bigger than they actually are, as part of the mental part of this disease. How do you know if this is a problem for you? and how do you know when what you are seeing is actually what is there?
I've managed to make it thru 60 days or so of not b/p-ing and I've been exercising in moderation too. When I look in the mirror, I think my thighs (which were always a trigger!!) have gotten smaller. But then I go to put on my jeans, and they dont fit. Did I used to think my thighs looked like tree trunks while i was a full on bulimic, but now I see they arent THAT fat, so it looks smaller, but its actually gotten thicker cuz I've gained weight!? This is totally confusing...
writing about this, I feel pretty silly now, haha. but I really wonder, what is real about what we see in the mirror? and if we're not seeing what's real, how do overcome body image distortion? how do we know what's real???