A month or so ago I thought I’d found a way to increase my ‘willpower’ by buying some naughty trigger foods and leaving them sitting there in the cupboard without touching them. I thought the longer I left them the better I would be doing and feeling - and I could let my husband eat them at leisure (as normal people do).
Now, this did work for a while, everytime I opened the cupbaord and saw my 'X' food still sitting there, unopened, I felt liberated and strong!
But recently (i've had a couple of pretty bad / hard weeks) I’ve found that by keeping the stuff there its turned into a devil-like temptation on my bad / down days. Its like I'm punishing myself - I can't have them, I have to walk away, I must force myself to recovery. But recovery can't be forced - so why do I make things so hard for myself?
So during my bad couple of weeks, I broke a couple of times and over-ate what was there (not to a major extend and by no means enough to make me want to purge) but enough to make me feel guilty and 'fat' and a 'failure'. More than 1 as a treat. Guilty that I'd restricted a bit that day and guilty that I'd therefore riuned my 'good' work! Restricting is the downfall, we have to believe in SE, its the best way!
Its my own fault, I put temptation there! On a good day it does make me stronger, but on a bad day it makes me weak, and unhappy and guilt-ridden if I crack. So I think perhaps its not a good idea anymore!!