ok so i work in hospitatlity and am currently a waitress. Im very grateful for this job because i've learnt SO much and have met some wonderful people through working there. I'm a waitress and am on my feet for 8 -11 hours a few days a week. When i have split shifts i find it extremely difficult to stick with SE. for example i'll start my shift at 11 and then only be able to eat something at 4 in the afternoon. Its so difficult to cope i get so sad, angry, moody, and victimizing of myself, and then i feel guilty because "I'm not like everyone else who works there and can handle a whole day and suck it up without eating anything".
When i bring snacks to work i feel guilty when I eat them because none of my other co-workers eat during their shift or in front of anyone else. I've also gained a bit of weight since following SE and since working their and as shallow as this sounds i am FREAKING OUT of their opinions of me, and my body image is just going down the drains. I really don't know what to do about SE and these shifts I'm getting. And for example tonight i worked 11 hours and over the course of the day had 3 meals with a little snack, then came home and just pigged out on nuts and raisins ( a huge trigger food for me ) now i feel like shit, am just flipping out about weight gain, and am worried about the guilt that seems to automatically take course and will lead on tommorow.
Hunger makes me scared and angry. I really am not sure how to deal with this and how to do SE without feeling guilty...ugh, please help